Reality Check

After all the excitement and build up yesterday I checked my e-mail this morning to find a rejection from Arizona State University. What? This boggles my mind on so many levels.

Level 1: I have never been rejected from a university. For God's sake, I was accepted to the Anna Freud Centre, which is far more prestigious than ASU. Sorry, I'm just being a little bitter.

Level 2: Aren't we in a recession? Shouldn't these schools be accepting anyone that breathes and has a checkbook? I guess not. ASU has been hit really hard this year, and as my kind friend, Heather, said, "It's a bad year for anyone to get into ASU. You might have a very different outcome in a different year." This does make me feel somewhat better, but still...

Level 3: A rejection e-mail? How rude! What happened to a nice rejection letter? At least then you still have a little hope and don't feel like you're being slapped in the face. I mean, come on, the subject was "ASU deny letter". Damn, just because you have to make budget cuts doesn't mean you have to be rude.

Level 4: This isn't so much mind boggling as it is the reality check portion of today's event: I now have no choice but to move out of Phoenix. I can't put off doing my masters for another year. I have to get on with my life and ASU was my last reason to stay in Phoenix. Now all my eggs are in a Portland basket. Good thing there's no pressure or anything.

Oh Goodness...

This is not at all the blog I had planned for today, but I received some mildly exciting news that I feel I must share. I say mildly because it has potential to be extremely, but not just yet. I don't like to jinx things, so I have to keep this low key. I'm a firm believer that if you get too excited about something it probably isn't going to happen. I know, it's kind of a sad way to look at life, but I can't help being superstitious. Anyway, I digress...

Today I had an e-mail from the admissions office at Lewis & Clark (my first choice for grad school) inviting me to interview. When I read the e-mail all my insides went "ooohhhhh" and my heart maybe stopped beating for 2-3 seconds. Since the school is in Portland I have to do a phone interview and these make me a little nervous. I can honestly say I think I have a pretty stellar personality, but I worry that it doesn't come off right over the phone. I use a lot of facial expressions and hand gestures to accompany my personality, and those just can't be translated telephonically. Although, when interviewing for a place at a university in England I was told that my honesty was refreshing. But ya know, the English think us Americans are so funny and they're so impressed when we're even mildly intelligent, so I can't really play that card here. On top of that, they ask that you write a one to two page essay on social justice and equity. Huh? Um, I'm applying for Marriage, Couple and Family Therapy. I guess another opportunity to play the "I lived in London for five years" card and hopefully BS my way into a master's program.

Cross your finger (toes, legs, arm, etc), say a prayer and throw some positive energy out into the universe for me. Please and thank you.